Its like taking a breath or falling in love~

Life Lesson #2: Never give up on love, unless the one you are in love with thinks that you are a crazy stalker out to ruin his/ her life.
Never give up on love~ BECAUSE LOVE IS WHAT MAKES JULIET KEEP ON GOING IN LIFE~ Teh power of love is stronger than anything. Okay. Enough about the power of love. More about using people. I am going into a semi-emotional breakdown because SOMEONE told me to go with another certain person to the winter ball. THE PINEAPPLE IS NOT GOING WITH SOMEONE TO THE WINTER BALL THAT IS JUST USING HER SO THAT THEIR BASKETBALL COACH WILL GIVE THEM A BREAK. Fluck YOU! I am not THAT desparate. So you all can just shaddup~ Luki basturds who have a date, good for you, cause Juliet does not have a date. She will go along and be the hit of the party. Imma get my hair done, my nails, everything so i will look like a different person. I have to go into party mode where I can actually talk cause I will lose my sense of self-consciousness through a process called "NO ONE CARES!" Its a month away and its gonna be awesome. Because, i dont have a date. A physcic told me that if i was to ever go to a dance, i would be either popular or i would lose a chance at love. WHEN DID THIS BLOG GET SO CHEESY?! I DONT KNOW!

Love is consequential. It only flows in more than one direction. You dont have a soulmate, because you CANT have a soulmate. THere are millions of people you can fall in love with but there is only one you CAN fall in love with. THE BIGGEST FACTOR OF LOVE IS PROXIMITY. The closer you are to someone physically (WTH! STOP THINKING WRONG.), the more likely you are to love them. This is why I am moving to England where I can run the hell away from you guys here in the US of A which is soooo corrupted by the way. I want to be in France where I can take a walk on the beach and cry while staring at the sunset which would hurt my eyes so very much...

-sigh- If only i could redo my life. I would ask for that one moment back and I would treasure it for a LIFETIME. I would. I shoulda taken better landscape pics of the place and more cow pictures. Instead of running around randomly. I want to eat sushi again with Liza. I want to run around the city with Matt and Rayne and have them carry all of my shopping bags. I want to not cry for every mistake I've made. I wish I could reverse time to my birthday and set everything straight. I wish I could taste the sea. I wish I could feel less cold. I wish the world was as beautiful as yeaterday. I wish that I had a pony. I wished that he knew and he liked me back. I wish I could play guitar. I wish I could look and act cool. I wish I could be invincable. I wish I could be invisible. I wish I could have taken more memories of my life, but I cant, because I cant turn back time. I cant reverse the faults Ive caused. I cant be emotionally strong. I cant even change my wardrobe. I wish is far from reality. I wish is selfish. If only I could live happily forever. I wish that reality was not reality and that dreams of happily ever really did happen. I wish that I could ride into the sunset dragging a prince behind me and laughing, "ohohohohohohoho~ ". I wish i could remember a time when it was all unicorns and pink instead of mean people. I wish I could remember the time when I fit in with everyone and I wasnt so plain. I wish that smiles didnt fade so easily. I wish that the days lasted longer. I wish that the trees wouldnt whisper my name and sing me to sorrow. I wish that the never-ending sky was less blue and less broad as it carries the clouds that hold the despair of the heavens and the tears of the maiden who had lost her lover. I wish that the soil would not remind me of the inevitable end. I wish their faces did not remind me of the laughter reflected into their eyes, glistening with luminicity. I wish these hands were not so worn from weeping onto them for loves lost and the calling of the sea. I wish the sea would not call out my name and try to lure me into the icy depths of the abyss. I wish that these words were not like knives, but they are. I wish that I could take my words all back and start over. "But you cant jump the track. Youre like cars on a cable and lifes like an hourglass glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button now, so sing it if you understand and breathe~ " Forever stuck in this paradox of unrelentless torchering. I love you, you hate me. I wrote a poem all about that. ^_~

FOREVER STUCK IN FEBRUARY

<3 02.08.08

-Vicki