semi-depressing.

Gragh. Who knew that guitars were so hard to play?
Pft. I give up.

Its annoying to think about high school and the future. Who will you meet? Who will be your friend? Who will you marry? BLECH. Its all a mystery to the most of us. THats why I want to go to a psychic. An accurate one like the one bloom has in the Ex list. I love that show so much. Its a hilarious drama. An idiot once told me that the future is nothing but the past repeated. Well, it is sorta true.

Like a week or a few weeks ago, I opened my time capsule from my elementary school days and I was amazed at how much I've changed. And how much some things just never change. I still watch the winx club (kekeke~), read romeo and juliet over and over again(and I still hate alls well that ends well. Shakespeare's comedies are like me trying to write jokes. FAIL.), eat mochi (mochi= <3),>

I am girlier and more or less wanting to be popular. I want to have a piece of the popularity pie. This is occured in my desparation to develop a social life. A LIFE. The saying "get a life" derives from my life. Its not that I hate my life, though I do, but because my life is so BORING that I wish something would happen. Its a repetitive routine. Gragh. I have to go run around. I dont get to meddle with peoples lives anymore. I dont get to be less poised or more poised. Let me get this straight too. I AM NOT A RICH PERSON. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? Do you see me with anything relatively close to expensive? No. I am relatively poised. Its called practice for the real world and its also due to the fact that I CANT SPEAK TO PEOPLE IN A NORMAL CASUAL MANNER!

One of four things happens when I talk to people:
1. I talk in an overly sweet voice which only occurs when I am around older people.
2. I tell people "youre annoying." and I act in a rude manner causing them to flee. I give them additude. I talk in a weird sorta deep sounding voice which is worse than my normal one. This happens when I am super intimidated and I feel i need to stand my ground.
3. I joke around and laugh a lot. Happens only when I am around guys. Cept its not flirting. Because I still sound like an evil maniac. xD I really need to get that fixed. Its not that I cant flirt... its I KNOW HOW TO FLIRT BUT I NEVER GET A CHANCE BECAUSE GUYS ARE MAGNETICALLY ATTACTED TO TESS OR BELLA. It gets annoying sometimes because they have guys playing into their hands and they dont choose one. GIVE ME MY HAREM BACKKKK. Blech. Maybe because im not girly enough. GIVE ME ONE REASON WHY THE HELL IM NOT GIRLY ENOUGH.
4. I talk in a tinkerish voice who gradually fades into a normal voice. Happens when around friends.

-sigh- i need to fix all of this... its so... BLECH. I need more to show for my life than bad social skills and the fact that I am totally fake around people who I dont know well.

BTW: I AM FAKE AROUND PEOPLE I DONT KNOW WELL.
I am like the fakest person in fakersville, fakeland. XD
I cant talk normally to anyone but my closest friends and guys. Its built into my genes. My parents did that. Their semi-popular genes collided and now im left without that gene. WHICH HAS MADE ME A DORK. SOMETHING THAT WAS ON MY NEVER BECOME LIST IN 4TH GRADE. >.<>

I shall be back after i gather gossip from my source. REVERSE DORKIFICATION. REVERSE MY NERDISM. T.T

If you are looking for Vicki

She is not here right now

Juliet is here though

stewing in her paranoia of her own life

-slaps juliet-

SNAP THE HELL OUT OF IT!

-Juliet VanSchulear.

or JVS? WTF >.<