LolWutHW!?

Great.
You guys suck.
No one told me about the workbook until hanna called all panicky.
HOW THE FCK AM I SUPPOSED TO PULL ALL OF THIS OFF?!
Argh.

Nice.
And since Edwest is having a major control issue in HR,
we get hw.

I forgot.
I TOTALLY FORGOT.


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Guess what happened in 6th period:

1. I got called fat.
2. I got paper thrown at me.
3. I was implied to have romantic implications with a guy I don't really know too well.
4. I was insulted.
5. I insulted my friend/ ex-crush
6. I didnt finish any hw

Guess what happened afterschool:

1. I wasted 5 hours looking for a frickin layout.
2. I had to take x rays of my teeth.
3. I contemplated how I look.
4. I looked in a mirror.
5. The mirror was so warped.
6. I look hideously masculine.

Guess what's swirling in my head:

1. The list of guys who think I'm creepy (everyone)
2. The list of guys who will never think me pretty
3. The list of people who want to jump me (practically no one)
4. The list of songs i play when i am depressed
5. The list of people who are willing to talk to me (very few people)
6. The list of imaginary characters I create (infinate)
7. The list of retards who like to poke fun at me

The rest of what's swirling in my head:
-my hw
-the prospect of me having a boyfriend (a real one this time people. Yeah. I know. Gasp all you want, its probably not gonna happen anyways. As I have been told by many people I am too masculine and rough around the edges. No, I dont listen to them, but when you've heard something for long enough a time, you start to believe it... And that is society for you people.)
-the fact my novel has not progressed since february.

Huh, there's an intresting topic; society.

Society. The ruler of our lives. We tend to lean toward decisions made by otheres, that is- we listen to other people too much. And they have an effect on us. We dont realize it, but it is not we who make our decisions. Independant thought is a figure of speech. There are no independent thoughts in society today. The movement for a better Earth, a lie, fueled by celebs. They have trends and we follow them, like little dogs. Of course, I am still going to stay green.

Just because society is full of lies, doesn't mean you have to get all pissy offish about it. Accept it. You are a lie. All of us are. I know you, readers, and each and every one of you tells at least one lie. I bet i can spot it. You nervous, little, aggravated people, lie everyday. But it's inevitable. It's how the mind is designed. If you dont lie to yourself, you wouldn't be here today. You would be more messed up than me (which is pretty messed up). You would be INSANE instead of insightful. There's a difference you know.

Lie because it makes you happy. It makes the rest of us happy. Instead of telling him you've betrayed him, you cover it up until he finds out himself and snaps. At that point, you're armed with cash, flying down the highway at 60 and looking back every 5 seconds to make sure he's not following you. Or lie because you cant bring yourself to the fact that people are cruel and that he may never love you back. It's only humanity, programmed to reproduce. Feelings arent in play, your hormones are. Reasoning makes it all better.

Lie because if you didn't they'd think you're weak. They would pick at you like vultures even more so. But still, a wound hurts even with a bandage on. Lie because you are the cheery one, who is supposed to brighten up the room, Ms. Sun-shine. You could tell the truth once in a while. Demons of the past dont go away in a second.

Lie because it makes you feel better when you're around friends; you don't know them. You're only pretending to be understanding. All you wanted was a life full of happiness, surrounded by people, instead of emptiness, but you are still empty. Your wish fufilled, your heart finds something else to desire and you focus on that. You obsess. You moron.

Lie because it makes you, yourself. Because no one knows you. No one knows me. Is this entire blog a lie? Am I? Am I really Juliet or am I just something else. Make up your mind.

Lying is the truth, only backwards the other way. We can never handle the truth because:
-Love is an undying flame that dies in a moment
-Friendship is eternal until it ends
-Society is just a bitch
-I am just a fake

When you hear something enough, it tends to stick in your mind.
And when that thought is implanted, it grows until
it consumes you.

Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who do you love most of all?
Not you my dear
for whom which I fear
will never know joy.
Mirror, mirror born in vain
Would you say that my fate is lain?
Yes, my sweet
tis true
for you
for you
Mirror, mirror tell me the truth
How long will I live my youth?
Not a day past 8 years old.
Seriously?
Yep.
Wow. That's gonna suck.
Hey, it's not my fault. You asked me.
Eck.

And so,
The juliet in the mirror has been like this
since the beginning of 2nd grade.

LIES.
or not?

<3 figure it out yourself.

xoxo,
Juliet